It has been a long time since I have felt the urge to write here and on this "11" day of an 11 month in a 7 year of Divinity, and I can only credit my purchase of yesterday for this resurgence, a magnificent oblong Carnelian that called to me to take it home. A stone known for enhancing creativity, action, confidence, sexuality, Carnelian revitalizes the body, bringing an increase of life force into it, and as I connected with its vibrations, so this stone reflected what was already within myself.
Recently, I have sensed a great change coming into place and a powerful reconnection made two weeks ago, on an "8" day was but the precursor to this. This meeting of "chance" was by Divine Decree and seems to have turned my life inside out and put me in touch with emotions, feelings of the heart I thought I was never going to be able to experience again. Since, a Love of such profundity for all has been filling me, and the purity of its Truth can only be relayed by the Heart's music as I connect to the Beloved within.
And so this morning I woke up with a new level of awareness of my physicality, a level that I am not used to, I sensed a masculine awakening in me, and why does it feel like my Beloved and I have traded places again?" The question and answer arise in me at once and ring true to my body as tears begin to flow in recognition...and is it a true trading of places or simply a continuous flow in a figure 8 pattern offering a change of focus from one energy to another, both within myself, yet taking turns at coming into view? And the awareness that I am Him is like a coming home in Joy, so again I ask: " Have we traded places?" and as tears flow, I must but surrender to the evidence my body is giving me, a trading of places of sorts, a change coming from within and that shall reflect without some day, and I release any expectations of how my Beloved's presence shall manifest
And I stand in wonderment of the miracles Love has brought in my journey, and the canvas upon which I have painted my dreams reassures my Humanness that the future I created looms brightly ahead
